THE NEW TESTAMENT
A LIFE PHILOSOPHY OUT OF FICTION
So I have been thinking, seems like the Old Testament is a very aggressive story in some sense’s and because of this, It might have been doctored by the ‘Holy Roman Empire’…. In order to actually control people through pacifism, which isn’t all that bad is it? A pacifist is a person that rather listens and speak, using the word to control the situation instead of the hands. Which in itself is really interesting.
I’ve been thinking of the messiah, what is the real ordeal of the messiah, is he here to cause a mess, is he the trickster, or the one that will straighten out the past so that the future can be clean from the fruition of the snake’s eternal lies of what is and isn’t right or wrong, how I see it, it was never about making people falter about god, but rather to uplift the divinity in people by telling truth’s that would eventually cause havoc because people couldn’t possibly live without someone to look up too. I have been in the situation where I was seen as someone to be, because I stated how I live and what I do and what not, and I felt like I became an Idol, when I broke one thing that I had said I did not do, which was drinking, that person, kind of stopped talking to me, because she could no longer look up to me as something to strive towards. I don’t want to be perfect, I just want to be, and experience things.
I have been thinking of Christ, in a way, did he save everyone by dying for your sins or did he just tell himself, that they do not know what they are doing and because of this he also stated that they shouldn’t be punished for their deeds. That doesn’t mean you are saved, that means he forgave those that mistook him for a bad person. If he existed….. Christ for me is basically Crystal, meaning one who is clear. Thinks clear, see’s clear.
So what is the messiah supposed to be doing? There are soooooooo many messianic stories going around all over the world also, there are ragnarok also, where all gods die, what if gods are real, but we have all become gods without knowing it, would we even see ourselves as gods if everyone are equal in standing? It’s a strange thing to state perhaps, but it’s a question non the least.
THE RETARDED FOOL
MESSIAH OF THIS TIME AND AGE.
Still, I have this snake in the back of my head, stating I’m much more then I want to be, and my own voice stating I’m more than I let myself to be, and I kind of think, well, maybe I just created everything as a storyline to cope with my traumas, so I’m in a full blown psychosis…. Yeah, that is how I am coping with the synchronizations, and strange experiences throughout my life, that others kind of have had, if we are all parts of something much bigger, then well, is anything right?
It could also be that I actually relate to the whole savior role, and because of that I become very emotional and scared, it’s probably just a personal trait. It’s like when a song speaks to you, it’s not a personal interaction with singer, it’s just that you are in the exact same feeling as the artist was when recording the piece of ‘art’… when you listen too it, you feel it, and that feeling can be very intense. It’s always intense to feel the same way as another person, but You need to know that it’s your own feelings coming up from the darkness of your past. That is a good thing, and that is how I try to figure out how to change the world in my own way, I don’t have to save the world I just have to change how I perceive it, and the rest will change along with it. Others will try to invade with their thought trains and drama, but it will just blow of as if it wasn’t there to begin with. It’s wonderful to be honest.
I saw the newest episode of “ASH VS EVIL DEAD” yesterday, and In it he is sitting there in an armchair, about to give up and sobbing about being a worthless piece of shit, and yet he is the savior of everyone in that story. I was actually crying with him, because I know exactly how he felt in that moment. It’s not like I am the savior or anything, I just relate to the feeling of trying to help others all the time and being told to love myself instead of interacting with others. It’s a strange thing to relate to though.
I’m just a lost person, trying to figure out the many strange things in the world, nothing more then that. I hope.
All life is Equal, All life is Sacred.Slisk Lindqvist
Respect Life, and Life will Respect you.